ive lost so many friends. or let go of them. or been let go of, and at times im hopeless, careless, souless. but... I find some strength to love again to let go and let God. disappointed many times. many many too many times. but if i walk around around with a heavy heart and clouded mind i most definitely wont find what im looking for. misery loves company. more more more. on the outside i smile, im carefree, im open. inside i doubt, i remember before, i can't.

Break Break Down....

Ok, fellas I'm going to TRY and be CLEAR with this. If you read this objectively it might be an EYE-OPENER, but if you are sensitive, you will be a little heated.

Ya'll are the biggest hypocrites of all time.

I say this because I am SO SICK and TIRED of hearing you guys say the following:

"Girls, don't know what they want!"

"I hate girls who play GAMES!"

"Girls say ONE thing and DO another!"

You can't be serious. You CAN NOT be SERIOUS!?

-But let me be realistic and honest.-

Now, I admit. [Some] Women are HORRIBLE at clearly communicating to a man what it is they want exactly because [some] women DO play games.

They do so, because they feel that you sir, are initiating the game.

I have guy friends. And it's pretty much a general response I get when I ask, "what kind of girl are you looking for?"

Most guys want a "good girl". They want the girl that ISN'T at the club every week. Hell, they prefer that their girl don't EVER go to a club. They want her to be HOMEBODY, the type that won't be out at all types of the night. They want a girl with a GOOD education and a GOOD job. They want a girl who has a GOOD head on her shoulders and isn't caught up with anything that comes out of ANY guy's mouth.

But yet....

The guys who want this "good girl" and complain that girls play too many games and don't know what they want, are the SAME guys who go to [insert hyped club name here] every week, get 4+ girls number and sleep around.

I'm sorry fellas, you're playing yourselves. Good girls clearly see you ain't really about ANYTHING serious. Why waste time?

So this is WHY when you do muster up the courage to get that good girl, she don't want you! Cause you the SAME fool, that was at [insert club name here] going SMACK at her HOMEGIRL.

You say you want one type of girl, but you're seen chasing after the opposite. Not willing to give up 4-5+ girls on the side, but still want to stamp that ONE girl.

Bahahaha, I swear.

Ra Ra Ra Ma Ma Ra Ma Ra Ma Ma Ga Ga Ohh La La

she's the best! Period

It Ain't Me, Babe

I'm not one to male-bash. thats just not me. i do joke around from time to time and say "there's no such thing as a good man" but deep down I know there is one. Hell, I probably know one myself! But it's true when I say I haven't met one for me yet. I got a lot of good guy friends but I know no guy who is SERIOUS about a relationship who also happens to be a good guy.

maybe I'm just too picky. I want the best of the best for me. I know I'm not the TOP of the LINE, GRADE A, top SHIT, but if I found a guy who would do all he can to be that for me, I would do the same. in fact I WANT to. but I just haven't found Mr. Right.

so if all else fails by age 25, I'm a have to keep it moving. I'm a head straight to the sperm bank =D ---Holla!

Confessions

I've always loved her. I remember when I first saw Friday After Next. Whew! I thought she was the most beautiful person, God ever let me see! Ever since then she was added to my lists of most beautiful women, PERIOD. She joins: Stacey Dash and Selena. My 3 ladies! K.D. Aubert, read up on her, she's such a GOOD PERSON. You don't find to many Hollywoods who are but she is definitely a DIAMOND who gets no love! One day she'll blow WAY UP and everyone will be hop-ons, but I was here first! :)

Love Jo =-)

Stefani-Ish

Lady Gaga - [ F i l t h y P o p ]

I love this song so much. You have no idea! It sounds really Gwen Stefani-ish but Jádore! Lady Gaga is hot, I new it when I first heard Just Dance! She USED to be on point with fashion, but sometimes she just does too much. Gaga, go back to square one, please! ;-)

Love Jo =-)

Fears

• not ever having children
• not getting married
• my mom being taken away from me too soon
• not graduating with a b.s. (already have 2 a.a.)
• not finding a good somebody for me

stole this from my boo love chae visit her page at www.chatticathii.com

she's so beautiful. i love her. :)

(adrina lima)

"I can love you...a little better than she can...oooh ooh oooohh ooooh...." Steve Madden ($99.95)

real rap

what you mean have i ever loved before?

you probably haven't either!

what you mean have i given my heart before?

you probably haven't either!

what you mean im not like other girls?

you probably think I haven't heard that either!

what you probably mean is

hiIhavenothingtoofferyouandthereforenothingtoloseso

don'tlistencloselytowhatimbouttotellyoucause

I know you probably can do better if you choose.

unclear

i don't disservice anyone in my life.

friend, foe, associate, fuhk it, whatever it maybe.

i tell like it is. 95% of the time i do so politely, but the 5% is out there, don't overlook your turn.

im known to say things and verbally tell you how it's gone be and it happening later.

so watch you do to me.

hmph.

aww i like them. i just order some shirts. i fucked with animaniacs.

12.18.09

Santa Fe.


details soon...

1. Joanne

A girl who seems innocent , but also knows how to have fun. Joannes are usually beautiful, have slender and sexy bodies, extremely smart, and get all the guys.

(taken from urbandictionary.com)



how are all of these SO true? :o)

2. Joanne

The lucky people who are named Joanne are attributed special qualities such as beauty, intelligence and compassion. They are loved by everyone and everything thing. Babies crawl to them and dogs wag their tails. Joanne's are the most adorable people ever. They have the innocent element that attracts all men, but only devotes themselves to one special guy.

(taken from urbandictionary)

5. Jo

the female version of Joe. Usually short for Joanna, Jolene, Josephine, and other such "Jo" names.

Usually arises in the form of a sassy, small (in stature) female.

Girls with this name tend to know where they are going in life. They love to have fun, but are always looking ahead at their goal. She knows what she wants, and she knows exactly how she is going to get it.

On the outside she has a tough shell and tries to be a badass, but deep down she is a hopeless romantic. She wants and can't wait to fall head over heels.

Perfect match: probably something that starts with an E, like Evan.

Pet peeves: things that start with Ts, like Tony's and Travis's


(taken from urbandictionary.com)

hypocrite

i can't stand the dude that nags and complains all the time about women

"oh i hate the women who don't realize they got a good man, trying to treat them right"

or

"tired of seeing a grown ass woman saying being single is the life but yet want boyfriend #2"

fuck you and your bullshit dude. cause dudes say and ACT on them same words.

now granted, i don't condone or even participate in man-bashing, but when i see a man bashing on a woman for man-bashing, you lose all your credit.

guys always want to run around telling girls that your current dude is nothing like your ex-dude but yet you turn around and say "met a girl at the club she said niggas aint shit and i thought to myself she aint nothing but another pussy"

give me a break. practice what you preach.

no two books are exactly alike. might have similar concepts, ideas and even quotes, but if you thoroughly read BOTH you'll see that they are 1024 pages DIFFERENT in their entirety.

party, party, party let's all get waasssted ;o]

tomorrow is the big day!

it is my twin's bday. i love you so much adriana.

AND

our big birthday bash!

if you've been invited i hope to see you there! if you haven't been invited there's NO hard feelings, i probably just don't have your NUMBER or E-MAIL.

if you'd like to attend, please E-MAIL me at J0SMILES@yahoo.com (it's a zero in my name) or TWITTER me at twitter.com/j0smiles (which is also a ZERO)

if you need a reminder of time, place, day, or WHATEVER just hit me up at the aforementioned contacts.

love you! =^]

piano lessons.

Don't bet on me I'm a longshot,
I might bet a million to one.
So don't bet on me I'm a longshot,
But in a million i might be the one.
the one

come over

Can I (come over)
Get wit' ya (come over)
Just wanna (yeah-e-yeah)
Be wit' ya baby

So tell me what the deal?
You’re not that far
I just got my bags
And I'm headed to the car
Say yes or no
Cuz I'm on the road…


Um..Wait a minute, my battery's low...lemme… aight