ive lost so many friends. or let go of them. or been let go of, and at times im hopeless, careless, souless. but... I find some strength to love again to let go and let God. disappointed many times. many many too many times. but if i walk around around with a heavy heart and clouded mind i most definitely wont find what im looking for. misery loves company. more more more. on the outside i smile, im carefree, im open. inside i doubt, i remember before, i can't.